Last week started feeling real kicks rather than just flutters....oh...So great!! I need this reality.
The excitement and realness of a baby inside me, alive. I don't know the future, but for now, I am enjoying Knuckles and will always have this time with him/her.
We will find out next week if Knuckles is a girl or boy...I have no idea. I so hope I will be able to see Knuckles' eyes...and laughter, sleep, eat, go to his/her first day of school, run, play, travel and walk on this planet. I hope Viviana will be there to watch over all of us and know how much we love her, miss her and would give anything to have her here too....
One day at a time, though I wish this pregnancy would hurry up because I am ready to hold my child....
I wish all of these things for you.
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Hi Brooke,
ReplyDeleteYou said in your comment that you just saw your baby...do you know who you are having yet? I go in this Thursday at 15 weeks and the tech said she will try to make a distinction, but will not make any guarantees. Congrats on feeling your baby! I cannot wait to make it that far in this pregnancy...that will be a first!
I am so with you on being ready to hold this baby! I vacillate between hope and fear too. I am wanting to have the faith and enjoy the rest of this pregnancy!
Hugs & prayers,
♥ Heather
I love how you named your baby. Had you already chosen her name? This is such sacred journey for you now. You are the keeper of two precious and chosen lives.
ReplyDeleteWe loved our visit to the Penninsula a few years ago, especially P.T., seems like a great place for artists, too! My aunt is an artist also, oil paintings, in Everett.
I can see how this pregnancy would feel slower, every day wondering, is this the last day I have with her/him? But hoping still. I believe God creates that desire for hope in us, that desire for child-like innocence. But it can feel so scary and make me feel vulnerable, with reason too! I pray for a little bit of faith that can move mountains. It is not within my human strength to muster it on my own.
Please feel free to email me, chelso935@hotmail.com. Yes, it would be cool to meet one day. It feels like many of the mother/grief bloggers are from the midwest/south or east coast. Maybe the innovation has yet to travel all the way over here!